Feelings

Mixed feelings while in Vietnam

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Anyway, it’s not fair for all of you who come to read my blog after a long time if you only get this mess from me. So, you deserve to get something sweet. Then here it is, unposted pictures of mousse cakes I made for some friends.

Avocado-strawberry mousse

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Chocolate mousse
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Mango mousse

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passion fruit-chocolate mousse cake

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Notes

Today (I mean yesterday because its already a new day now) I wrote more notes than usual. From the morning until the night there have been so many mixed feelings. The message box is almost full. I may have to buy a bigger box to get enough space for more and more messages created everyday. If reading all these you will see that i am just a crazy person but after releasing all my thoughts i could gain back the balance. I imagine one day i may publish a love-letter-collection book. You know i am good at writing sweet messages. i am just not good at speaking it out :). Listening “loving you” by Leona (ft ?) now. I have heard some most known versions, but i love this version the most. I feel full of loving emotion and peaceful feelings coated in each word of the song. I don’t know why, but everytime i make a list of songs on my mobile phone which includes this song (this version), when it comes to this song, it won’t turn to the next song as the order anymore. This song just keeps repeating though i didn’t set it so. It happens like that always! I just want to smile about that! That is a feeling of real peace! WYWHJED!

Falling

I used only one picture of two birds with different motion effects and a small section of a video to make this video tell a love story in a simple and coherent way. The story is about two birds fly together through all storms and wind, rain and shine to land in their own happy land and enjoy peaceful life together. Choosing love of birds as the theme for this video, I was inspired by my own small story related to love birds and a quote in the famous novel “the Bridges of Madison county” which is said in a letter Robert sent to Francesca: “I once watched a Canada goose whose mate had been shot by hunters. They mate for life, you know. The gander circled the pond for days and more days after that. When I last saw him, he was swimming alone through the wild rice, still looking. I suppose that analogy is a little two obvious for literacy tastes, but it’s pretty much the way I feel”… I have no dout that birds have also rich and diverse emotion like humans. I always love the image of a bird couple and I hope this simple video is not only to satisfy my feelings on this day but also can touch your heart! Enjoy 🙂

Happy Tet Doan Ngo in Vietnam and Midsummer day (St Hansaften) in Norway as well!

Song: Falling
Song writer: LeBlanc and Carr
Singer: Ji Young Sun

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I say “no title” because this post will be a mess of my rambling thoughts. 🙂

I started a new blog site where i expect to earn some money from what i post. But then they required me to submit the original ones which means that if i want to re-post something here i have to delete it or set it in the private mode first, and then resubmit later after i have posted it on the new blog site. Oh yes, it’s annoying. But nothing is easy and free. That’s why you see some of the posts here suddenly disappear. But for sure some rambling posts about my feelings like this is exclusive in this peaceful corner.

I just heard from a friend who said that she didn’t know why she felt sad sometimes. I do understand that feeling and i told her that maybe we needed it because sometimes we needed to balance our feelings. But actually i think that we don’t need reason for everything that happens. it comes because at that time it has to come and it is the right time for it to come. We can’t resist it. If we try to find the reason, sure, we can find something eventually. But is it necessary? I have learnt to respect everything that goes differently from what i think which includes my “stubborn” feelings. I used to think that showing my sadness or negative feelings to others was offending them. But then in another way i offended my self.  Going, seeing, learning and experiencing life have helped me to understand that living as you are and as you want is also a value that you should respect. Because it’s not only a way you respect your feelings, respect your self but also respect the persons who look at you, care about you and love you. Even when you are sad or you are depressed, if they love you, they would want to share that feeling with you. Living with your real feelings, even with your sadness is a kind of happiness. Because thanks to that you know when you are happy and it makes you feel happiness to the deepest. Living with different feelings is a way you catch diverse moments of life which makes your life become more colourful and interesting…

Ok, that’s enough complicated thoughts for today. what i really mean is cry when you want to cry and smile when you feel like smiling. Life is too short to hesitate because when you realise it, it’s already gone. Let things be what they should be. For that I am now having a medium smile. You know what it means? :]

Release our memories

I am watching the serial “the moon embracing the sun” and can’t believe that i am addicted to a film again. So touching. Its just not because of the excellent acting skills of the young actors but also because of the tearjerking screenplay it has. All the time i watch the film or listen to its OST song below, my tears drop like rain falling. I can’t help crying for the hard fates of those deep and suffering lovers. When it presses their heart too hard, people tend to ask themselve a forever-lasting question: why do you have to love a person when it hurts so much? But being hurt for a deserving love is also a type of happiness. Even its a desirous happiness. That’s why people blindly love each other even though they know they shouldn’t.

And then the hardest part is to release your memories, especially if they were just too beautiful. Your brain says yes but your heart is still stubborn. The most important thing is you have to forgive your self, forgive the other, forgive the mistakes of your youth and forgive your regrets. Not easy but time will heal all the wounds. And one day you realise that it’s the time. You can both cry and smile but feel sure to say that you are ready to stay out of your memories.

Don’t ever be sad about that anymore. Forgive yourself, Forgive her/ him. Let it go…
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Inspired by this song, and this film, I am writing this post specially for you, my friend and for myself.

Continueing to die for the next espisodes of this film. When will it come to the next wednesday? So long! Will the “moon” and the “sun” finally end their story in peace and happiness? Waiting and waitng…

To watch the film with english subtitles:

http://www.dramacrazy.net/korean-drama/the-moon-that-embraces-the-sun/